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30
Jun
To Date, or Not To Date

Dear Diary,

I seem to be at crossroads in my life. Yes, I know, another one, go figure. I am very happy the way things are right now, but some days I am doubting myself about if I am really happy or not. I think its cuz my B-Day is next week and I am going thru that ‘getting old’ question again of if life is passing me by and I am too stupid to know it.
So I have been thinking about getting back in the dating scene again. maybe. sorta. not really sure. It seems to be just too darn much work! I’d rather be at my home, having a nice relaxing evening. yeah-sounds boring, but still, to me, it sounds very nice too! Besides, I am still tying to get my kitchen cabinettes finished and perhaps some new Delta fauctes and I have a ton of little project to do . . . I know, sounds like I am just making excuse’s to stay home, well, maybe I am, heck if I know!

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29
Jun
Tired

Dear Diary,

When will I learn!? Monday are always a killer. I just get to bed to darn late and now I am paying for it. But it sure is nice to sleep in on Saturdays and Sundays, heeheehee.
I did get a ton of stuff done this weekend. It was very windy Saturday, so I got the box cutter out and opened some old boxes so that I could fill them back up with tree branches and sticks that fell off the tree! I need to get my winter wood supply going. The twigs make for great starter wood.
Other than that, we did go see Transformers. Wow, what a rush! It was such a smash-em bash-em summer movie! I loved it! All in All a great weekend.

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24
Jun
Differences’s

Dear Diary,

Since I only have an hour left here at work, I decided to surf around and read blogs. I have not done this in a while and it was nice to catch up on my friends blogs.
What stood out today, is just how different me and my son are from other families. and how different other people live compaired to me. It seems to be the season for BBQs, family get-togethers, friend and family campings and other stuff.
Well, the kiddo and I have never done stuff like that. Its always been just him and me, doing stuff mostly alone-just the two of us. I know why too; its from being scared to death of the X and what might happen if he found us. It is so foreign to read about others having friends over for a BBQ and getting out with a group of people, and mostly – having other adults play with the kids. I just trust No One. and I dont think I ever will.
Its always been just me and the kiddo. and its been tons of fun! I would not trade it for the world.

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24
Jun
It Never Ends

Dear Diary,

I really dont like Wednesdays. Never had, Never will. However, today is sunny and warm, so I guess its not too awfully terrible. Plus, I think I am just about done digging the dirt in the back yard and preparing it for flowers. My back is aching, but I dont think I will need any Blue Cross North Carolina benifits anytime soon. Today I plan on resting. Yeah Right, I dont even believe that one! I have so many errands to run and my kitchen cabinettes doors are still off and need to be re-stained, gosh I have too much stuff to do!!! I need some time off work, pooh.

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22
Jun
Monday Head Aches

Dear Diary,

Today my head is throbbing. It was a long weekend w/the kiddo. We seemed to dissagree w/everything every second of the day. He has informed me tho, that he has turned his brain off due to summer vacation. I consequently told him to turn it back on or no more TV, Laptop, Wii, GBA or DS! He was not a happy camper. I swear he is turning into a Zombie! So Frustrating.
We did have out yesterday, so I hope all will be fine when I pick him up from Summer School Gym today.

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19
Jun
Mostly Sunny

Dear Diary,

I just got out of a meeting with our Fitness CoOrdinator regarding my year long fitness plan. I basicly told her that I was not going to exercise anymore. She did NOT like that and told me that she would rather see me exercise rather than loss weight. But I think I know myself better than she does so she can just stick it someplace! I need to loose at least 5 lbs for DC/NYC in a month. No Prob; as long as I dont exercise! Besides, its not like I am running around after work every day, never resting, never sitting, never anything but running around! I get enough exercise thankyouverymuch.

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18
Jun
The Grass Is Always Greener . . .

Dear Diary,

This weekend, or sometime soon, I wish to dig up some dirt by our fence and get the dirt ready for planting. I want my garden to look like our neighbors. Mostly so our Porter will stop going in the neighbors yard! He wont poop over there, he just eats and sniffs, and lays in, their plants.
But I think having more greenery around might boost my mood. Here is pic of Porter, yes, in the neighbors yard!

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18
Jun
Keep.Eyes.Open.

Dear Diary,

As usual, Today I am tired. This time cuz I did not get to sleep till past 11pm last night. I was trying to let the kiddo have a little freedom, therefore he stayed up till 11pm watching Cable. However, since I sleep in the loft, I did not get any sleep till I yelled at him “Enough!” and he went to bed.
I know he is a a teenager, but there has to be some inbetween area here. I need my sleep, so does he – but he does not get up at 6am anymore. Ah well, we just might have a nice talk this afternoon.

Other than that, I also have to make a decision regarding going out on a date or not. But thats another story for later.

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17
Jun
Rainy Wednesday

Dear Diary,

Today I feel like I am coming down with another Cold. My nose is stingy and stuffy, and my body aches. I was just out sick last tuesday from work, I mean really! What the heck is going on?! I also woke up today w/a sore back. This is it; no more exercising for me. I am going to check out some Lipofuze reviews and basicly eat less. ugh.

Perhaps this evening I will be able to rest on the couch and watch some TV. The past two days I have not sat down till I went to bed! No Fun. ugh.

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16
Jun
Tuesday Blahs

Dear Diary,

Today I am rather tired and just a bit down. There are so many things going on right now that I feel like I am going under. Yes, this happens a lot in my life, and I dont like it. It needs to change. I am working on it. I went to the fitness center again today to start the Treadmill and/or Stepper again, but now my back is hurting again. I chalk it up to being fat. I dont like being fat. I am working on this too, but things sometimes just dont change as fast as I want them to, and then on the other hand, other things change too fast! I feel like I am getting pulled from so many sides and its all I can do to keep myself together.

One main change I am going to make starting today, is to try and blog more. I will be writing to Dear Diary now, which in a sense, is a part of me. So I guess I will be writing to myself, so . . . sorry if you-all dont like my new format, but I feel this is something I need to do to keep my sanity.

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