I am fat. and yes, I know that I have an eating disorder. I mean really – for breakfast today I had 6 cookies and coffee. Pretty much ate half my calories for the day and its only 9am. ugh
I need to loose at least 15 pounds (pref more). I have done it before, I know what to do, the prob is that I just need to do it! I feel terrible, lazy, and ugly. I really hate being fat – it totally ruins my life, give me a terrible outlook on things and makes me like way to grumpy. I want to be skinny again!!!
Tomorrow is Christmas Eve, the last eat-out dinner of the year. We are having fish, etc. but the bad (or good) part is the sweets; Rice Pudding, Marzipan, Cookies, Cakes, you name it my Mom made it. I love sweets! This is it tho – I am loosing the flab; need to look hot for summer again. *sigh*
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We are not fat! We are just not as skinny as we would like to be. I am formulating a plan for next year… until then I still have some parties and aaron made cookies the meanie.
yeah, I guess . . . but I still want to get skinny again. I just feel terrible like this