I think I am at the point where I have had enough. I dont feel healthy anymore, I dont feel happy, I am just miserable. Of couse, this all has to do with my weight. yeah . . . right . . . thats it for sure, blame it on being fat. But really, I am 5 pounds away from my all time heavy. and I am pretty depressed about it too. What really gets me is that people keep telling me that I look fine, great, you dont need to loose weight! But I have figured it out, those are all the people that weigh more than me; my skinny friends dont tell me that, only my friends that are heavier than me. Go Figure. I guess I have selective hearing.
Well! I cannot listen to them anymore. I need to listen to myself and get healthy so that I can be happy again, and so that my body doesnt hurt, and so that I can sleep better at night – my gosh the list goes on!
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Not doin’ good on WW this week. Gained one pound since Sunday. I know what I am doing tho . . . eating too much, duh ! I have felt a cold coming on the past few days and my body has been telling me to fuel up as I have had no energy. So yesterday instead of trying slimming tablets, I choose to eat 2 slices of Pizza! and Wow I feel so much better today! Ya think tho, that it could be all Mental on my part ?! I think so. It was soooo nice to eat greasy heavy food that my mind cured my cold, har har har. But today I am starting anew. Now I have too loose 3 pounds by Sunday – ah, well now that Ain’t gonna happen !
I was so angry at myself Wednesday at gaining all this extra weight, that I over did it on the Treadmill again. I raised the Incline and Speed and really worked it for 45 minutes. Needless to say, the next day (and today) I am paying for my hard work – Once again, my back is hurting. I do this every once in a while; forget that I am old that is, and over work myself. So today I can not work on the treadmill, as I can bearly sit in my chair w/o screaming in pain!
This is SO frustrating! Some days I think I should perhaps try a different route in this weight loss battle – maybe try cigars
or something else to shove in my mouth instead of food ! errrrrrrr
Yesterday I woke up and decided that I just cannot take it anymore ! So I forked out the dough and signed back on to WW. My goal is to loose 25 lbs. I have until summer to get back into my Summer clothing, not to mention my Spring clothing as well as I cannot even fit into those anymore.
So yesterday and today I have been surfin’ around the WW site and it really has changed in the past several months. I am not quite sure if I like it yet . . . They have changed the Point system . . . They dont go off Calories anymore, only Fat, Carbs, Protein and Fiber.
So for example, a Banana used to be 2 points; now it is 0 points. This also includes Apples, Oranges, Grapes, etc etc etc. Pretty much all the friuts and veggie are 0 points. What I dont get is how can I eat so many Calories from friut and veggies and not have it count towards my daily Points ? Its just too strange. Oh and get this, my Points used to be 20 a day; now its 29 a day. That is about 1900 calories a day as compaired to 1000 calories a day at 20 points a day. I cannot eat that much ! I have to stay around 1200 calories a day otherwise I gain. I know this cuz I am nutso about couting calories.
So, what I am doing, is when I add a Banana in my daily Tracker, I put 2 points down.
I just cannot see how eating so much will help me loose! Its not like I lost 45 pounds before, i just kinda gain a lot back.
Soo Frustrating !
Since I am 20 pounds overweight, I have noticed that along with my waist, my boobs have also gained a size. When I was skinny I wanted bigger boobs, but now that I am fat I want my little boobs back! I wonder if this works for men but in a different way . . . when men are overweight do they still need a natural male enhancement or are they bigger when they weigh more too ? Just wondering . . . . I dont really have a boyfriend to ask, so I am just jotting down my thoughts here . . . it could be that I am slightly depressed today as well . . . but thats for another post . . .
eGads I ate way too much yesterday at Thanksgiving. If it is in front of me, I eat it. I seem not to have any other choice. So when I get off work today I am going to grab me some quick weight loss pills, then go home and clean out the Fridge and cubboards, getting rid of all the junk food. The Kiddo is just going to have to deal with it. Its either that, or have a Fat Momma and I know he doesnt want a fat mom!
I gained those 3 pounds back that I lost a few days ago too. Total bummer. But like I said before, it is really easy to loose weight, the hard part is actually DOING it ! ! !
Now that we have like Tons of Halloween Candy in the house . . . . errrrr, this is Not Fun! It just keeps on calling me: Eat the Chocolate, Eat the Chocolate! I folded last night and ate like 8 mini Butterfingers. They were really good too, however – I did not loose any weight since I started this stupid Diet on Monday. Yesterday was not a good day. I need to start over today. Again. and I just started over Monday! I need some serious help. ugh.
I was actually down 6 pounds, but then I ate and ate and now I am up 6 pounds. I am having a really hard time finding any kind of motivation for loosing these 16 pounds. I mean, everyone says I look fine. I dont have to worry about the boyfriend saying I am fat cuz I dont have one! I had my blood checked and all is well . . . so what will get me going and loose the flab? Do I try weight loss pills? E2L again? WW again? I have tried it all. What I need is a goal; something to strive for . . . . eGads. Austria in 2012, France in 2013 . . . but that is like SO far away !
I think Fall has finally arrived here in Uah. Today the clouds are accumulating and rain is in the forcast for tomorrow and even snow Monday! I love the snow! I am taking Monday off work, just so that in case it is the first snow of the seaon, I will be able to get outside and play. Perhaps that can be figured into my daily exercise as fat burners, burning away those extra calories I ate this week. ugh. I am hoping too, that the cool weather will slow down my eating. I tend to eat less in the Winter. (still trying to loose those 10 lbs).
Today I stepped on the scale. It is two weeks to the day that I said I was going to loose these 15 lbs. and I have not stepped on the scale since, well . . . okay, I did once, fully clothed, just to make sure I was on track. And I seem be doing okay. Nothing major, but my goal of 5 pounds a month is actually getting somewhere. Today I was 3.8 pounds less that I was 2 weeks ago. I am happy. sorta. Its not like I want to loose 15 lbs in two weeks! okay – I really DO, but I know that I need to be patient and if I stick to it, the pounds will come off. slowly. but they will come off. Soon I will be able to fit into those apple bottom jeans and look good for Fall. Right now I cant fit into any jeans!
Slow and Steady wins the race. I just have to remember that
