It is that time of the year again when I need to choose my Health Benefits. This year we have two choices; Cigna and UHC. The reviews I have been reading are terrible for both of them. and to top if off, my co-worker just told me that she is researching them as well and that UHC has been outsourced to India! Can you believe that?! Our Health Care has been outsourced as well as everything else. So if there was a problem with prescription drug abuse addiction, I would call India. OMG. This is like choosing between two evils!
I have no idea what to do. I first went with Cigna as it is around $500 smackers a year cheaper, but then the reviews are terrible for them so I changed my election to UHC, but now I find out about outsourcing! I have no idea what to do. I have about a week to decide, so I better start talkin’ around and researching more. sheesh!

Well the week is coming to an end, and things slowy but sure do eventually get better. I think the main change for me today, was that the boss came into work and I got to sit down with him and chat for a while. Sounds strange, but talking to my boss always cheers me up and makes life better. I have thee best boss and I am very lucky in that aspect.
Luckily tomorrow is also Friday. Plus, I am taking Monday off work as well. Cant get better than that! I hope to run a few errands that have been piling up; I will need the best trucking gps for that task as I swear, I have been putting this off for a while and have a lot of running around to do.
Mostly I need one of those racks that you can hang your wet clothing on. I still dont have a drier and Winter is coming, so I am going to have to hang the clean wet clothing up somewhere in the house!

I have once again, fell back into some of my bad codependency habbits; I am forgetting about taking care of myself. Things are now changing as my eyes have been opened and I no longer want to be taken advantage of. I have decided that I am just as important as anyone else, and if they cannot take care of themselves and do the work they were taught to do, then I do not have to help them, bail them out, or fix all their problems. Ya know, they can do it themselves! It is not for me to take care of everybody all the time.
Today I have make some changes. I have actually said NO ! and ya know what ? it really feels good. They can think what they want about me, but I have had enough. Perhaps I might even buy me some cheap Valentines flowers even tho it is October! But I really deserve something nice, cuz I work my butt off and no one even says Thanks !

I am so far behind in my blogging, it is rather depressing. This month of October has flown by; but as of today I am ready for November. I am ready to leave this month behind, which is rather strange, cuz I really love October ! The leaves are changing, the weather is perfect, its just life that is not so good. (Or, I should say Work is not good. But I cant talk about that here).

Anyways, I have to keep a possitive attitude. I was told last week that I will have a job till at least the end of 2012. Which does give me some breathing room – but not much. I need to get up, get out there, step on that medical step stool and jump off and hope to land a great job and not a broken spirit ! I have thought of going back to work at the Ski resorts . . . but thats more play than work . . however, that could be exactly what I need.

I finally figured it out; why I am gaining so much weight. The stress here at work is making me eat. Serious. This past Monday I did not have to deal with our Sister Team (in another country) and I had a great day. I stuck to eating good foods, came home and cooked a nice health dinner and it was just great. Tuesday and Wednesday, I had a very stressfull day and got home and needed food; I craved something to give me energy and reduce my stress. Five Guys Burger and Fries hit the spot. Killed my diet, made me feel good for a few hours, but thats it. I need to have less stress during the day. I have tried listening to ipod nano headphones and good music, I have tried reading, sewing, walking, the list goes on – but I think it is my job – I need less stress. sheesh.